xanga has changed quite a bit. what i love about this site is how i can look at all my old entries and feel nostalgic about old times. or embarassed about how stupid i sounded and how i seemed like i was always trying too hard. i remember telling myself every time i come back to xanga, "yes, i will start writing in here again weekly." ahaaa. i think i'll give up on that idea. i guess what made me log back on to this was all the xanga emails i've been getting. "sWt_drEaMzZz, Xanga misses you!" "sk8ting_princezz, Xanga misses you!" "nat___x3, Xanga misses you!" yes. i love my account names too, thankyouverymuch. but nothing beats my sexy email address, sweetrebel91. how cool was i, to think of that awesome screen name in 5th grade. too cool for school. like in middleschool. i thought i was such a badass. our "gangster asian group". tch yeah. i cant tell if i hated middle school or loved it. i think i hate it more than i loved it. it's embarassing just to think about how stupid i was. does anyone else find it difficult to share their writing sometimes. not like, writing like this, but writing from school or something. i dont know why but it seems like one of my biggest fears is letting another peer read one of my papers. i think its because, i know writing is a weakness of mine. and i'm afraid of sharing something that'll show that i'm not very intelligent in that area. and then its like, i put effort into that paper. i feel like people judge me based on my writing, like it's a reflection of how smart i am. bahaha you guys are probably like, natalie you are one weird one, why would you log onto xanga after like a year and start writing about how you're afraid people judge you on your writing! i think its just the first thing that came to my mind. wooot. i just killed about 20 minutes from my studying time. okay toodles.
so. yes. as most of you know, while driving i accidentely bumped a woman on the way to school going probably 2 miles per hour. from that tiny little bump that i thought only looked like slight scratch, it seems that her bumper and left tail light needs to be replaced and her alignment is off. when i finally told my parents they reminded me, very very loudly, of how stupid i was because i didn't copy down her license and insurance information. and that i was also stupid because i didn't tell them right away. then my mom, still loud, went all medical on me and said how the frontal part of my brain lobe hasn't fully developed yet because i'm still growing, so therefore i am incapable of making good judgement and cannot drive anymore. for a very long time.
seriously one of the weirdest ads done by a celebrity. i never liked sarah jessica parker, and this makes me dislike her even more. its like, wtf mate.
so this past summer, my parents have given me a reasonable curfew at 12 am. but recentely since school started, my curfew has been changed to 10:30. which is like..ridiculous and unbelieveably frustrating. i find it unfair that my social time is cut without reason besides, "i just think its too late for a sixteen year old to be out until 11:00". umm...reminder: i've been out till 12 since freshmn year? why the sudden change of thought, i have no idea. so so so frustrating. its like, come ON give me a break here. its junior year, i've been working more than i ever have since school has started, i only get to go out on fridays (since my mother decided it was necessary to make saturday a "studying day" tch), and you cut 1 1/2 hours off of it. so. not. fair. its like when the whig party used salutary neglect and the americans became accustomed to their freedom. i feel like my mother is the british parliament taking away more and more rights from the colonial people, me, that are trying to gain independence. see this is what i mean: you know you need a break when you start comparing APUSH studies to aspects of your life.
aside from that. i've been tired. no time for exercise. and energy drinks have become part of my regular diet.
yay. SAT is OVER! ...for now. rawr. and i thought the dance went pretty well, yeah? we had a good dj and no dance popo!
lately i've gotten really lazy with my ipod. since i switched from using a comp to laptop, i've been too lazy to transfer my music library. but now i seriously miss music. i can't stand listening to just mainstream on the radio everytime i get into the car. so does anyone want to burn me a cd? :)
ANNDDD who wants to watch across the universe with me? it looks freaking amazingggggg
you know when you have dreams that really make you think? its like your brain is trying to tell you something. or help you finally realize something important. but then now it seriously confuses me even more. aoinfap038pa3rnaskjdn
